a twenty first...

21st... yang sudah lama kelewatan.. saya pikir cuma pergantian umur sperti yg sebelumnya (well, secara selebrasi, kado, dsb dsb kyagna emg sama :P)

but I never know.. that 21st could be so complicated...

I'm just a human with all my weakness when I turned to 21st.. (ga ad yg salah kan? every human have their own weakness :P)
I'm okay with that (I really am), guess I dont need to change it, or even if it's needed, I'm not sure I can

But God has another plan...

and that perfect plan made just for me... hows that plan feels like?

well..

feels like having a hard slap in my face when I was sleeping, make me awake with a half of my consciousness...

like I have to run when I'm not sure I can walk properly...

like send me out of my comfort cave without notification and take me to a whole new place where I should learn from (almost) zero (with all my mistakes :P)

like point out all my wrong in a harsh way.. fiuuuhh... (mungkin memang harus begitu.. :P)

like giving me a whole month assignment, and I just have a week to finish it... then next week I should be ready for the exam ,, T__T

in a way...

in other way...

God also send me 'A Special Someone'... hahahahay, yang belum tentu dikirimkan ke semua org, :P

the extra ordinary one..
the one that have completely (apa absolutely ya.. wkwkwk :P) different personality with me.. hahhahay.. thanks God analogi membantu :P

the one that raise me up, when I let myself down...

the one that trust me even when I didnt trust my self...

its always strange, when I think bout everything from the beginning

but however... for that certain someone, I'll always be thankful ^^

and for u my dear one, a neverending thanks... ^^


I believe (at least) there's something wait for me in d future, dont need to ask why, cz I'm sure I'll find d answer, little by little... :P
All I need right now is a faith to keep me stand as tall as I can, a stronger shoulder for carry a heavier burden, and a greater soul >,<

the 21st not gonna end yet (masih lamaa...)
there are still many lessons to learn...
there are still many assignment to do...
there are still many times to make myself better...
there are still many limited chance to change...

But I know, there's no need to worry...
I already have an angel as my companion ^^ (please help me get through these.. onegai shimasu >,<)
and above all I have my Greatest God
XDD

Its a long way to go.. and
strangely, for my whole life I've never feel this lucky... XDD

--Ojou--
(living room - Wednesday, November 25, 2009 - 1:40 AM)