Lullaby by Josh Groban

Maybe I really need a lullaby.. T^T

"Lullaby"
(feat. Ladysmith Black Mambazo)

Hush now baby don't you cry
Rest your wings my butterfly
Peace will come to you in time
And I will sing this lullaby

Know though I must leave, my child
That I would stay here by your side
And if you wake before I'm gone
Remember this sweet lullaby

And all love through darkness
Don't you ever stop believing
With love forlorn
With love you'll find your way
My love

The world has turned the day to dark
I leave this night with heavy heart
When I return to dry your eyes
I will sing this lullaby

Yes I will sing this lullaby
Oooooohhh


singing for life (errr... for sleep this time =_=zZzz)
--Ojou--

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG NIGHT

I CANT SLEEEEP T^T

WHAT SHOULD I DO????

TOMOROW I'LL HAVE AN EXAM...

OUWH....

GOSH....

MY EYES.. PLEASE... SLEEEP...

*look at the clock*

WHAT!?!?!? 1:27 AM

I'M NOT GONNA SLEEP...

T________________________________T

Masquerade -- by Backstreet Boys

heuheu.. it's such a new label for this blog. a song lyric I listen.. maybe not always an updated one, or a new one.. but this is a song I listen recently.. this time, it's from Backstreet Boys.. hahagz.. just love their song :P, n sometimes, when u can't write ur feeling.. it's far more better to say it with a song.. rite? enjoy then ^^

Masquerade
by. Backstreet Boys

Backstreet
Listen up

This scene's so hypnotic
Smoking mirrors, lights and magic
Paper faces in gold
There's solider boys, beauty queens
Everyone's a mystery
It's got me losing control

Yearning, I'm yearning for the one to steal my eyes
Wanna play in this game of disguise

It's a masquerade, a love parade
So won't you stay and dance with me
All through the night and day
My masquerade, I need you baby
So stay with me tonight

Masquerade, Masquerade, Masquerade, Masquerade
Masquerade, Masquerade, Masquerade, Masquerade

Just like a perfect dream
I don't ever wanna leave
A thousand freaks in the show
One's a tiger, one's a lynx
One's a king that suffering
Moving high, moving low
Burning, I'm burning, can't you see it in my eyes?
Wanna play in this game of disguise

It's a masquerade, a love parade
So won't you stay and dance with me
All through the night and day
My masquerade, I need you baby
So stay with me tonight

Masquerade, Masquerade, Masquerade, Masquerade
Masquerade, Masquerade, Masquerade, Masquerade

I gotta know the girl behind the mask
Let me in, where you've been, don't pretend
Dreamed that I had her alone
Show your face to me, we could be everything

It's a masquerade, a love parade
So won't you stay and dance with me
All through the night and day
My masquerade, I need you baby
So stay

A masquerade, a love parade
So won't you stay and dance with me
All though the night and day
My masquerade, I need you baby
So stay with me tonight

Masquerade, Masquerade, Masquerade, Masquerade
Masquerade, Masquerade, Masquerade, Masquerade


singing for live ^^
--Ojou--

My Bright and Shine Day ^^

Location: on my couch
Date and Time: Wednesday, January the 6th 2010, 11:23 PM (Bangkok, Hanoi, Jakarta)
Listening: Blue Bird by Ikimno Gakari
Watching: My Boss My Hero eps. 05
Reading: my weird short story
Eating: sop kacang merah + telur mata sapi
Drinking: Dora Oxygen Water

Konbanwa minna~ ^^
I'm really in a good mood today..
actually, today, I got stuck in my university building, coz it's raining.. well, actually, it was a rainstorm, never been this worst before...
so, I have a talking with my best friend, Moncy, I really thankful for the rain today, coz I can spent a great time with her ^^.
on my last post, I'm really in a dark mood, it's even scary for me to read it, how poisonous.. :P
well, I have a problem with my self.. I think I have a fight with my other-rebellious-side of my self. But, today... I make her disapear.. hahahahagz... deeply thanks for Moncy.. *kissu kissu Moncy*

Bdw, I never think bout it before.. it's a feeling I forgot I have...
about trusting other, and tell to them how ur feeling is...
I'm a complicated girl... and guess I already complicated, even when I'm just a kid...
I remember how I try to tell my friends bout my problem, but they never get it, they thing I'm weird, and have a strange way of thinking.. so they just ignored me...
Time after time, its just the same thing happens to me...that people around me never get my point, thy never understand, or even try to understand...
so in a certain time, I stop trying to make them understand...
I said to my self..
"that shallow minded person would never understand our complicated mind... jadi, beri saja mereka sesuatu yang bisa dengan mudah mereka cerna.."
and that's what exactly what I did... I become someone they get easily understand, I become approachable, open people, someone who always make other people happy.. someone simple...
that's all what they think...
but me, myself.. never changed since the day I say that to myself.. I'm still complicated, but no one see it.. :P

but today, Moncy makes me believe that there's someone who can understands me, someone who cares, and someone who always listens to what I say... someone who understand my feelings... than I find my trauma faded away.. little by little...
and I'll forever thank you for Moncy... ^^

Owh, bout my mother's problem...
I find a very good solution to make it all better... for me
that I'm her precious... and she knows I can be a human if I try hard enough...
she just want me be on my best... she just want me be happy, no matter what, and have no regret...
I know she loves me a lot... (and I love her too ^^)... all she want is, she is not here, by my side, in faint...
fuuuh... okaa-sama...
I will try my best... I'll give u a great surprise.. a very good one ^^...
I'm not gonna make u down..
dakara.. oka-sama...
hora!! I'll reach that star above.. just for u...
*kissu kissu oka-sama*


and I'm still
searching for life
--Oujo--

a stupid daughter.. and oh, its 2010 !!!

Location : on my bed
Date and Time: Friday, January the 1st 2010, 10:51 PM (Bangkok, Hanoi, Jakarta)
Listening: 'Remember When it Rain' by Josh Groban
Wacthing: Superman Returns
Reading: tutorial Adobe Pgotoshop CS
Eating: D'Creepes toping pisang keju
Drinking: Dancow susu coklat

Nite everyone..
1st of all.. I wanna say, Happy Nu Year 2010... ^^
I'm gonna miss 2009 for sure,, but hate it as well.. banyak hal yg sangat precious di 2009, dan banyak hal yang bikin marah, jengkel, sedih, tapi for 2009, I'll always be grateful ^^
Then.. 2010 it is, sudah menyiapkan resolusi? I'm not, soalnya resolusi saya kmaren banyak yg ga tercapai.. maybe I'm just gonna make a wish and try my best..

By the way...
I'm not in a good shape while I'm writing this blog. Well, I guess I'm just gonna write it, its my memory however :P. Its about my mother.
Well, let me explain a little about her. I'm sure, semua orang akan menganggap ibu mereka adalah orang yang hebat, dan saya termasuk orang-orang itu. Ibu saya adalah seseorang yang hebat, she works for us, nite and day.. 24 hours 7 days..she never think about herself.. it's always her family comes first. Caring, strong, independent, and beautiful.

Its too bad for her, mungkin Tuhan memang tidak adil.. she has a daughter like me. For sure, I never think I could be good enough for her.. I thought that I do nothing but always make her disapointed, I've done nothing if u asked me..

fuaah.. this tears.. is it really necessary, what did I cried for?
My mother even doubt whether I love her or not.. haha, am I look so ignorant? am I look like a super rebels?
what should I say, Okaa-sama.. I love u.. I love u so much it's almost painful... this unspeakable love... I'm sorry.. I wish I could make u believe... cinta itu ada, dan sangat besar.. hingga tidak mampu membentuk kata...

Moncy said I'm precious, that everyone will be very thankful to have me in their life.. ahh.. Moncy, she's such a great best friend I've ever had.. (that's why I feel thankful for 2009, cz I have her in 2009).
Am I really that precious? Can't lie that I really doubt about it...

I'm a stupid daughter, am I? I realize it recently..
we cant choose our parents.. we take them for granted.. and as a child we should always be grateful to them, for giving us birth, love, and many things we have.. that's why we cant ask for perfectness.. they do their best and they're perfect in their way...
but we, as a child.. is their hope (especially me, for I'm their only child..). They put their highest dream on us..praying, wishing, hoping... doing their best.. a child should be perfect for their parents...
and all I do is nothing but make them sad...

I cant say nothing but sorry... a deeply sorry Okaa-sama... I'm sorry for I can never be your best.. but I sure try...
and I just want u to know... that I love u... I love u... and for a thousands time.. I'm gonna love u till the end...
I'm sorry... and thank you... always...

searching or life,
--Oujo--